Back again

Ok,

Since I first wrote, I went up to 284 pounds. I am now down to 264 pounds. I'm seeing a nutritionist and I know that if I exercise I could lose a lot of weight and pretty quickly (at least for a while) since I lost that twenty pounds in about two months.

I'm just lazy and trying to figure out what to do, when.

I want to have a baby and I know in order for me to be healthy and have a baby I need to lose weight. I worry about losing weight and then getting pregnant before I've lost the amount of weight I need, because then I'll probably just put it back on (although my nutritionist promises me that I do not have to gain weight during my pregnancy if I can follow what he tells me to do).

And here I am talking about a future pregnancy, when I've been trying to get pregnant for a year now and no such luck, so I don't even know if I can get pregnant!

I've started using one of the ovulation kits to see if I am actually ovulating and then the doctor has recommended I do some procedure to check a couple of other things out... personally I just want to have sex and get knocked up. Isn't that how it's supposed to work?

Anyways, according to the ovulation kit thingy I have little chance of conceiving today, so I'm just going to practice :-)

And I hope to get back into the writing thing a lot more.

I went to New York for my anniversary, it was amazing. I'll write about it sometime.

If anyone is out there, let me know...